Archive | November, 2010

Rain Rain, Go Away

3 Nov

It has now rained for more than 24 hours straight.  At first the rain was kind of nice but the longer I stayed cooped up indoors the less productive I became and the deeper into misery I sank.

I’m about to go to Greek class, yet it is still raining.    Thankfully, I borrowed an umbrella yesterday so will get to class without much fuss.  But with papers a couple weeks off and another midterm looming in the distance I have to pull myself out of this weather induced lethargy.

My plan, and I hope you approve, is to take my work with me to campus and let the rain hole me up in the library rather than my room.  I’ll probably end up eating my arm for lack of food but it simply cannot be helped.  I hope all of you friends further North are experiencing better weather.

I was also thinking about how much we talk about the weather and how much we talk about our excessive talking about the weather.  It’s almost a way to say, “well, this conversation has grown dull, we’ve resorted to the weather.  Maybe if I point that out the conversation will pick up!”  No, it doesn’t.  The weather is probably more interesting and it’s usually not a good idea to point out how boring you’re being.

There is a line from Sense and Sensibility that I liked and sort of remember.  “If you have nothing appropriate to say you will please restrict your remarks to the weather.”

An Explanation

2 Nov

That prayer came out of my head last night; it was late and I wasn’t very focused.  It should be noted that what was displayed, The Candid Prayer, was in fact not candid but consisted of parts which I had noticed in the course of the prayer and drew amusement from.  Truthfully, most of my time praying doesn’t involve me blatantly bringing up contradictions through asserting different desires and feelings.  One might even consider prayer as useful in this respect, that is, prayer is a narrowing of the desires and an obvious validation of some.  It orders the soul and  acts as a validation of desire because otherwise you wouldn’t petition God for the fulfillment of it and once it’s validated through prayer you feel impelled to act upon it.  As things are, sometimes your actions may seem odd because your desires are often conflicting and we can look at prayer as a way of either consciously working out what desires are worthy or a subconscious way of having certain desires validated for us.  For instance, if one were not self-reflective and sat down to pray, only certain thoughts and longings are brought before God and, at least consciously, you will pursue.  So for the reflective and non-reflective alike, prayer prunes the desire tree, so to speak.  It orders the chaotic subconscious or outright defeats it and allows us to act.

The Candid Prayer

2 Nov

Let her love me, and her as well

May they flourish but let me defeat them

Make me great and make me humble

Please exist

In your son’s name I pray

Amen